28. A picture of me last year and now, and how I have changed.
I dared to go shorter with my hair and to straighten it more.
I've tried harder to accept my life for what it is and the life Heavenly Father has planned for me. That doesn't mean I don't have my bad days because believe me, I do. I still get in bed at night and cry silently to myself often, especially on the nights when Josh is at work. I try to hide how much it hurts me that I haven't been able to and maybe even can't give Josh the family I know we both deserve. It's something that seems so easy for others. I get really angry and I mean ANGRY at people who can have kids and get pregnant so easily, especially when they can't take care of the kids they already have and take them for granted. But that's on me, it's nobody's fault so I keep that to myself. There are only 4 people who know how much I struggle with this. Thank you to Josh, my mom, Shannon and Tara for listening to me and being there for me. My friend Kenna has a quote on the side of her blog that speaks to me and I'm working on it.
I've applied to start my pre-reqs to get into nursing school. I have a long way to go but I'm finally jumping on the bus to do something I know I've wanted to do since I was 16.