Saturday, February 26, 2011

Hope Smashed...Again.

So I guess I was pregnant but lost it last Saturday.  I had my suspicions for about a month but didn't want to test until the beginning of March when my period should have started again.  Sorry, I'm going to get kind of graphic...My period this month was really weird, it was early and brown but I didn't think anything about it.  My boobs were really sore and heavy for the whole month which they are usually only sore for the week before my period.  Again, I didn't want to test until the beginning of March so I didn't get my hopes up.  I woke up Saturday morning and just felt really weird.  I didn't feel good and was really crampy.  I went shopping with my mom and continued to feel crampy.  I didn't know if it was my ovulation or what so I just ignored it.  I felt something warm and just thought it was discharge from ovulating.  When we got home from dinner with my mom I went into the bathroom and saw the blood.  I was confused and did the math over and over in my head of what day I was on.  It was day 18 and I knew immediately what it was.  I called Josh into the bathroom and told him what was going on.  I hadn't told him I thought I could be pregnant because I didn't want to get him excited if I really wasn't.  The blood was bright red, clumpy and there was A LOT of it.  The cramps started getting worse and I was in shock.
I was glad to know I at least got pregnant again, but I was upset because my body had failed me again.  Why?  Why didn't it take again?  Why can't my body do something that seems like every other woman's body can do so easily?  I don't understand.  I know one day I will.  And if we ever do get to be parents it will be so much more special and we can tell our child how much we love them and how much we wanted them.
We are seeing a reproductive endocrinologist down in Salt Lake and go see him next month.  During November and December, I was taking Clomid and having my FSH level tested on day 3 and 10.  When my doctor got the results back they aren't what he wanted but I'm not sure what they mean.  He wrote in his message to me that we need to consider aggressive treatment.  Which that means that he wants me to take 3 FSH injections a month and do IUIs.  First, the injections are $300 a month and the IUIs are $300-400 each try.  That's $700 a month that we just don't have right now.  I've done 2 IUIs and they didn't work.  I asked my doctor if I could take Clomid for one more month and then we would come see him after the holidays.  I took it in January and that's when we conceived again.  So now we are going to see him next month to discuss other options.
Just trying to keep the hope alive...

Sunday, February 20, 2011

My Birthday Week

I took the day of my birthday off work to spend the day with Josh.  It was so nice to just relax and spend the day with him.  We wanted to go see a movie and decided on Just Go With It.
It was pretty funny but it was fun just to be with Josh.  
Tara was making me dinner and a cake for my birthday.  She made one of my favorite meals, coconut shrimp!  She found a recipe for Red Lobster's coconut shrimp.  It was so good, she did a great job.  Carrot cake is my very favorite cake with the cream cheese frosting so she made me a carrot cake ice cream cake.  It was really good, too.
us
I didn't have any presents to open on my birthday because on Friday night I wrangled Tara into coming to Bunco with me.  We had lots of fun and Tara had fun for her first time playing.  It was the first game the Jazz were playing without Jerry Sloan as the coach so we hurried home to see the game with the boys.  Tara is just as bad as I am at keeping surprises and she had been rubbing my birthday present in my face for about a week.  When we got home we voted that I would open my birthday present during half-time.  She messaged my mom, Josh's mom and my sister to see if they would  want to go in on the gift she wanted to get me.  They did and she got me a blog book!  I've been a slacker in getting my blog books made for each year I've blogged as the journal of our lives.  Tara, on the other hand, has not.  She makes sure she does her book every year and wanted me to have mine.  
 She also got me a cute picture of Josh and I, a purse and some cute bangle bracelets.
tara&i
It had been so nice up here for the past few weeks.  It was getting warm and the snow was all gone.  I was ready for spring even though it is the middle of February.  When we were getting ready to leave to go home, we looked outside and found this...
It was so bright outside at 10 at night, and so much snow!  It's back.
The weekend before my birthday we went down to Salt Lake to see Josh's mom.  We went out to eat at Red Lobster, again!  I love that place.  It was fun to visit with her for a while.  Josh's little brother, his girlfriend and their baby Raedyn came with us.
The Sunday after my birthday we had dinner with my family.  We finally got to play on the Wii.  Usually when we go up there, it's really crazy so we don't really get a chance to play it.  Josh loves playing bowling on it.  He and Chelsie got pretty competitive, it was funny.  We played Mario and Mario Kart with Jade.  And we laughed and laughed.  It brought back so many fun memories playing the nintendo when we were kids.
It was a great week to celebrate my 29th year...except for the snow!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

29

Well, I'm in the last year of my 20's.  I turned 29 this morning at 3:37 AM.  I'm not bothered about my age except for one aspect of my life, and that is that I'm not a mother yet.  My hope for this year being the year is definitely fleeting, sometimes I can reel it in and sometimes it's completely lost.  Sometimes it's hard to get myself out of bed in the morning to face the day and put on my happy face.  Anyway, that's a Debbie Downer post for another day.  Happy 29 to me!!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Love Day!

Happy Valentine's Day!  I hope you all have a fabulous day full of love.
Happy Valentine's Day to my Valentine, Josh.  Honey, I  love you more than words could ever express.  You are my greatest blessing.  As in Jason Mraz's song, I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend.  Thank you for being the person you are, you are exactly what I want.  You make me laugh all.the.time. which, as you know, is one of my favorite things about you.  You are the one I want to experience life with.  You are my shoulder to cry on when I just can't take it anymore.  You know me completely and my flaws but still love me anyway.  I will spend the rest of eternity trying to be the best friend and wife you deserve because you deserve the best.
I love you.  This song is for you.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Bye Mariah.

We have the cutest girls in our office.  One of them left this Friday.  Mariah is going down to Provo to start massage therapy school.  She is going to be so missed.  We love her.  She's just the cutest 19 year old girl.  She's so naive but adorable.  We always teased her and told her we hated her cause she is so cute.  She's had the IT guy ask her out and one of our medical students.  She was mortified and didn't know what to tell either of them because she didn't want to go out with them but is so nice and didn't want to hurt their feelings.
Right after she put in her 2 week notice, her family found out her dad got a job in Hawaii.  So Mariah is going to Provo and the rest of her family is moving to Hawaii in the summer, how's that for luck!
Since she's moving down to Provo and doesn't have a boyfriend, we've all told her she will at least be engaged in a year with all those cute returned missionaries down there.  She has a bet with Dr. Welter that she won't be so we'll see what happens to her!
Mariah, we are really going to miss you.  The office just won't be the same without you but we all wish you the best of luck in your new journey!
Trudy, Me, Mariah and Tara.
Aren't we just the cutest?!:)

Friday, February 11, 2011

Meeting Pioneer Woman and Sloan Resigns...What?!?!

I saw the Pioneer Woman's book tour on her website a while ago for Black Heels To Tractor Wheels and she was stopping in SLC again!!  She came for her cookbook but I didn't get to go to that so I really wanted to be able to go this time.  My mom saw it too and we decided to make a girl's day out of it and spend the day down there playing.  We thought of all the places we wanted to go.
I was looking at the SLC library's website the night before to see the details and went to the King's English Bookstore's  website who was sponsoring the book signing.  They said you had to have a ticket and they were available starting Feb 1st and they were first come first serve.  We had no idea.  We were both nervous that they would be all gone so we went there first.  The lady at the store said the auditorium was all full but they luckily had seats for the overflow.  So we got our tickets.
We decided to hit Tai Pan to see their cute decorations.  Oh how we love that store!  They had so many cute things and I found all the stuff I want to redo our bathroom in but I need to repaint it first so I didn't get any of it.  I found a purse and my mom got some stuff for her bedroom and bathroom.  While we were there I got a call from Josh.  He asked how we were doing then dropped a bomb on us.  He said Jerry Sloan announced his resignation from the Jazz.  Now, I was raised a huge Jazz fan (my mom would jump and yell at the TV while watching Jazz games) and my husband is a huge Jazz fan so it was quite a blow to hear he was resigning especially in the middle of the season...more on that later.  After we were done there we headed back down town.
We went to the Fanzz store at ESA to see their Jazz stuff, which we had planned to do before we heard about Sloan.  I got Josh a new Jazz shirt for Valentine's Day and my mom got her a cute pink Jazz hoodie.  We talked to a couple of the guys who work there about the news.  Then we headed to Trolley Square and walked around  for a while and were deciding where we should go eat before we went to the library.  It was about 3 pm and Sloan was doing his news conference at that time so we went out to the car to listen to it.  It was pretty hard to hear him say he was resigning as he was choking up.  He truly loves his team and everyone he worked with there.
We were debating between Red Lobster and Applebee's for dinner, Red Lobster won!  I got my favorite Coconut Shrimp, yummy!!
Me & Momma
We headed on our way to the library, way cool building by the way, and got our seats in the overflow.  We were so excited!  The lady from the bookstore earlier was the one introducing P-Dub.  She was so charming and talked for a couple of minutes about this book she wrote about finding her husband and through their first year of marriage and how her shirt had some serious static cling, then she opened it up for a Q & A for a while.  She was hilarious!!
When she was done with the questions they began the book signing.  On our tickets were letters A-Z.  We were R, so we had a loooong wait ahead of us.  We walked around the library for a while and played on the cool elevators, just me and my momma.  We had so much fun together.  Ree brought her two beautiful girls, Mother In Law and her Sister In Law, Missy there with her and we saw them sitting out in the library talking to people.  We went back into the auditorium to wait our turn.
We waited for over 2 hours but it was so worth it.  They weren't calling the next letters up very quickly so we were getting antsy waiting for our turn.  When they got to N and it was almost 9 (and this started at 6) we decided to make our way down closer and thought about cutting in line.  While we were waiting in line, I recognized a friend that I made during the I Heart Faces walk from last year, Marvett!!  Her pictures just keep getting better and better!  After P we got in line, then they called Q and there were only 2 people in that group so we let them go ahead of us.  Then we finally got to meet her...and I completely froze.  I was so nervous, I had hives down my bright red neck!  I had all these things I wanted to tell her and some questions I wanted to ask her.  I wanted to tell her how much she has taught me about photography, how I love her posts about her Bassett Hound Charlie and her punks.  I wanted to tell her I've entered her contests so many times to win something cool, like a new camera or a Kitchen Aid and still hadn't won so if she could do something about that it would be great!:)  I wanted to ask her children's names and ask her how her Kitty is doing and on and on.  But nothing.  My mom told her that we were down there for my birthday to see her and she asked how far away we lived and that was about it.  I felt like Ralphie from a Christmas Story wanting to go back to Santa and tell him he wants the Red Ryder  BB gun.  I wanted to go back to Ree and tell her how much we love her and wait for her posts everyday.  Oh well, it was well worth the wait just to get to meet her and get our picture with her.  It was such a fun experience to have with my mom!
us & ree
Jerry Sloan, he's been the coach for as long as I can remember, to me he IS the Utah Jazz.  It makes me sad to not see him sitting on the sidelines with the Jazz anymore and to think if the rumors are true and he left because of Deron Williams.

The AP report:
 After 23 seasons, Hall of Fame coach Jerry Sloan had only one bit of advice for successor Ty Corbin.
"Be yourself," Sloan said Thursday after announcing he was stepping down after 1,127 wins the Jazz because he didn't have the energy any more.
Corbin, a former Jazz player, already began meeting with players and will coach his first game Friday night against the Phoenix Suns.
Around the league, the shock remained.
"I'm too shocked to have a reaction," Boston Celtics coach Doc Rivers said. "It caught us all off guard. ... He's been there like this rock and all of a sudden the rock is gone. It's like your franchise moved or something. I don't know. It's just strange."
Miami Heat star LeBron James had a similar reaction.
"Man it's gonna be crazy and weird seeing anyone besides Jerry Sloan walking the sidelines for the Utah Jazz!" James tweeted. "Jerry Sloan is the Utah Jazz. Wow."
Sloan was the longest tenured coach in any of the four major sports. His resignation came just two weeks after the second-longest tenured professional coach, Jeff Fisher, parted ways with the Tennessee Titans after a 6-10 season.
"I had a feeling this time was the time to move on," an emotional Sloan said during a Thursday afternoon news conference. "(That's) a long time to be in one organization. Again, I've been blessed. Today is a new day. When I get this over with, I'll feel better. My time is up and it's time to move on."
Longtime assistant Phil Johnson also resigned, surprising even Sloan during their postgame chat Wednesday night with general manager Kevin O'Connor.
"I came with him and I'll leave with him," the 69-year-old Johnson said Thursday.
The two men agreed to sleep on their decisions Wednesday night at the request of team owners and O'Connor, who said he "begged" Sloan not to resign.
Nothing changed in the morning and Sloan reported sleeping better than he has in six weeks. Asked what he'll do now, he didn't know, and said he expected to be a "dizzy duck" for a while.
Jazz CEO Greg Miller also said he tried to talk Sloan out of retiring.
"I want to make it clear that nobody pushed Jerry or Phil out," Miller said. "I loved and respected Jerry for as long as I can remember... I will miss him but benefit from the things he taught me for the rest of my life."
Team officials made it clear that Corbin is not an interim coach.
O'Connor also called false reports that star guard Deron Williams told the team to choose between him or Sloan.
"That's not fair to Deron," O'Connor said. "That puts him in such a bad light. Whoever started that rumor is either uninformed or a liar. I would say the latter."
Williams told 1320-KFAN radio that he and Sloan clashed at halftime Wednesday but insisted there is no truth to the rumors that he forced the Hall of Fame coach out.
"We had a disagreement," Williams told the station. "I've seen him have worse ones with other players. Jerry's very fiery. I am, too. Sometimes we clash on things."
"I would never force coach Sloan out of Utah. He's meant more to this town, more to this organization than I have by far. I would have asked out of Utah first."
Willams said he and Sloan are both "stubborn" and clashed because they both wanted to win.
"Not many come into this league and can play for a Hall of Fame coach their first six years," Williams told the station. "I got a chance to learn from the best. We won a lot of basketball games because of coach Sloan."
Now it's up to 48-year-old Corbin to win some more, starting Friday at home against the Phoenix Suns.
Jazz broadcaster Thurl Bailey, who was traded to Minnesota from Utah in 1991 in exchange for Corbin, called Thursday a "sad day" for the state because such a legend stepped down. But he also was pleased for Corbin, the team's first black coach.
"That's significant," Bailey said. "It goes to a great guy, who was a great player, who happens to be African-American. But as we all know, this is a great country we live in. It's what he worked for. Some guys want to be president. Some guys want to be head coach of an NBA team."
Corbin was offered the job very quickly Thursday morning, and called it a "bittersweet" moment. Sloan said he had not talked to any players, but Corbin was able to sit down with Williams before the press conference.
"While it's a great opportunity for me, it's a bitter moment for me because I will miss these guys a lot," said Corbin, in his seventh year as a Jazz assistant and a former Jazz small forward.
The moves came on the heels of an emotional 91-86 loss Wednesday night to the Chicago Bulls, Utah's 10th in 14 games.
But Sloan, the longest-tenured coach in the four major professional sports, insisted that wasn't the final straw.
But he hinted after the game that something was in the works after delaying his postgame news conference more than 30 minutes.
"I'll be 69 years old next month," Sloan said. "I'm not as lively as I used to be. There's no question losses are very difficult to handle the older you get. When I was younger, I thought I could handle anything, but they were a little more difficult when you get older
Sloan just recently signed a one-year contract extension to carry him through the 2011-12 season, but he also indicated that he would not make anything official until after the current season.
The Jazz started 15-5 but fell to 31-23 after the loss to Chicago, the only other team Sloan has coached (he was 94-121 in nearly three seasons with the Bulls). The Chicago loss was the third straight at home, where the Jazz are only 17-11 this season.
Though Sloan has been with the Jazz since 1983, first as a scout, he knows how tenuous professional sports can be.
Even before Wednesday's game he made that clear.
He has made a habit of conducting his pre-game news conferences next to a large plastic garbage can in the concourse at EnergySolutions Arena rather than from behind a podium.
"You never know when you might be in it," he quipped Wednesday. "It's why I stand here. You take what you get."
Sloan began working for the Jazz as a scout in 1983, became assistant to coach Frank Layden on Nov. 19, 1984, and was named the sixth coach in franchise history on Dec. 9, 1988, when Layden resigned.
He is the only coach in NBA history to win 1,000 games with one team, reaching the milestone Nov. 7, 2008, against Oklahoma City. Sloan's other wins came with the Chicago Bulls from 1979 to 1982.
"Few people have epitomized all the positives of team sports more than Jerry Sloan," NBA Commissioner David Stern said in a statement. "A basketball lifer, Jerry was as relentless in his will to win on the sidelines for the Utah Jazz as he was as an All-Star guard for the Chicago Bulls. In over two decades as a coach, he taught his players that nothing was more important than the team. His most impressive qualities were his leadership and his extraordinary ability to encourage his players to subjugate their individual games for the benefit of the whole."
While he has headed the Jazz, there have been 245 coaching changes around the league - 13 alone by the Los Angeles Clippers, and five current NBA teams (Charlotte, Memphis, Toronto, Orlando and Minnesota) did not even exist when Sloan took the helm in Utah.
Jazz president Randy Rigby said he was grateful for Sloan's legacy.
Team owner Gail Miller called it "the end to an amazing era."
Sloan's 1,221 wins are third in the NBA behind Don Nelson (1,335) and Lenny Wilkens (1,332).
Sloan also is one of only three coaches in NBA history with 15-plus consecutive seasons with a winning record. Pat Riley and Phil Jackson, both with 19, are the others.
As a player with the Bulls, Sloan averaged 14.0 points, 7.5 rebounds and 2.5 assists in 755 games played over 11 NBA seasons. Nicknamed "The Original Bull" because he was selected in the 1966 Expansion Draft, Sloan was a two-time NBA All-Star (1967, 1969) known for his toughness and grit. He was the only player in NBA history to average 7-plus rebounds and 2-plus steals for his career.
Sloan recorded two triple-doubles in his career. A knee injury prematurely ended his career in 1976.
(Copyright 2011 by The Associated Press.  All Rights Reserved.)



They named Ty Corbin as the new head coach of the Jazz.  I really hope he does well.  He's been there for the past 7 years and I think will do a great job.
We spent the rest of the day while we were driving around listening to all the interviews and discussions about what happened to make Jerry decide in the middle of the season to resign.  It's just so sad.  He truly will be missed!
All in all it was a great day to spend with my mom and meet Ree!!